March 30, 2014 Leave a comment
The death of one thing usually heralds the birth of the next phase of our lives. Lately there have been some pretty big ‘deaths’ or transitions I have been going through. Both in my work and in my personal life there are transformations afoot and it’s terribly exciting and scary at the same time.
It’s funny how the insecurities I felt as a child and teenager as my life flipped and turned over are still the same feelings I feel is my late 30′s. It surprises me to feel like a 10-year-old some times, but I guess being scared is the same at any age. Am I making the best choices for myself? Will the path I have chosen to walk lead me to where I really want to be? Am I being the best version of myself? What’s different about where I am now in my life, is it’s not all about me any more. Every decision I am make is reflected in my family and how it will impact them. I am one part of a larger whole and I have to take others feelings and wants into consideration. Again, I am reminded how easy my parents made this adult thing look and how little their fears, worries and concerns impacted me. I will step off the ledge, knowing the ground is secure beneath me and I will trust in myself and my abilities that the decision to move is the best thing for me and for the ones I love. I will trust that I have what it takes to make this a huge success. Fear be damned!